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Assalamualaikum semua.. Wow, almost a year has passed and this is my newest blog post. All those days, weeks, and months even, passed without me having the slightest inkling of updating my blog. You know how busy a life can be. (Dreadful!) Trust me..  .......My life so far? Idk, it's a whirlwind. How can I describe or tell or whatever you guys could call it those 36 weeks or 254 days of experience and squash it into one-entry blog post? That's bloody ridicule! All I know is that my life is constantly changing. (a phrase that my English lecturer would always say); a complete conclusion of my life's history for this year. I have been admitted to Kolej Mara Banting, Selangor for a two-year diploma programme, IB (abbreviation for International Baccalaureate) which is one of the many preparatory programmes offered in Malaysia if you were to continue your study overseas. Alhamdulillah, I cant thank God enough for this opportunity. However this is just the first bab

Salam... Nobody's perfect huh. For some reason, I am definitely one to argue (physically i mean). Let's go with this; not everybody's physically perfect. YES that would be much more acceptable. Tipulah kan you have never met a perfectly flawless people. Bcs in my seventeen years of life, from my peripheral point of view, there ARE flawless human beings. Every angles and curves of their body and facial features are molded and so perfectly carved that I could do absolutely nothing else but stare at them in full admiration. Almighty can do no wrong.  Nevertheless, I, being a perfect queen of imperfections, have flaws which I loathe. But self-destruct is waaayyyyyy out of the equation. I'm too precious to go down that road! I cant change the way I look. That's beyond my limited power! God created each person for a reason to change if not the whole world, but to the world of someone at least. Each individual has their vital role in making a significant involve

Assalamualaikum.. Hi I just received an award today. It was a MISC Education Excellence Award, the company that my father is currently working for. I could say that the award has brought an impact on me-though not tremendously. Hmm.... I was fascinated by one particular eye-opening speech given by the best student (believe me, she deserves to be the best among the best)(she's not just the cream, but she's also the icing of a cake) I cant remember her name, unfortunately but I do remember that she was from Intej (Integrasi Jempol). You know, now in this particular time I'm writing this entry I have come to the realisation that these past couple of years, those manusia yang Berjaya adalah manusia yang sentiasa taat pada Allah. Comparing myself to them I realised yg I don't resemble them at all. Not even one bit. Ya Allah, jauhnya aku daripada jalan yang diredhaimu. On and On I used to write in my Bahasia Malaysia's karangan about how people marcapada live bertuh

Hello beauties I just wanna say that Im currently falling in love with classical music. NO-not THAT classic like Beethoven's or Mozart's- well, at least not yet. I might go as far as adding those kind of music to my playlists sooner or later and that is for sure. It's just that after listening to TaySwift's Blank Space cello/piano version, I was totally stunned-felt goosebumps all over you-stunned. As lame as this may sounds, I kind of cried (no don't ask) but not a dramatic kind of cry but just plain tears. I don't even know why.  But honestly, no I don't think it's actually a cry though but ugh screw it I'm useless with words! Nak tahu something yang I dream gila tak? I've always wanted to go to MPO as a first date camtu ah. Ahaha I mean, the idea of going one is kinda romantic right? No? Whatever guys. Cause it definitely IS a turn on for me though. The beautiful sound of an orchestra is soothing. It takes you to a dreamland. You don't

Hi uolls Okay so actually I have nothing productive to say. Just suddenly mood nak berblogging is switched on. I'm actually at my kampong ni so yeah, tahu jelah kan I have absolutely nothing to do (acah je ni padahal belambak je kerja boleh buat) So Intan actually nak story mory lah kot dengan uolls semua. Life ni kekadang memang seems unfair kan? I mean have u ever had to face rejection upon rejection some parts in your life? Well, I have to endure these things for quite a number of times now. And it sucks- to the moon and back. Know what? I failed the jpj test! Lol it has definitely taken its toll on my emotional rundown OK. In some ways, I feel kind of useless but then again inilah reality kehidupan kan? Life is like a wheel, rod, tyre, circle or whatever that is sememangnya kita akan merasa being at the top or even being squashed-as cliché as it sounds, it is undoubtedly the truth!-the ugly truth. Tak boleh nak lari dah. I don't know lah, maybe its karma or whatever n

Hai I just checked the online MARA application and I got it! But I cannot get my hopes too high though bcs this is only the first step that is for the interview session je. After this ada ujian psychometrics which is to be done online je on 20th march ni. Then on the 28th I have to go to Kolej Mara Banting at 8am for the iv. Hmm, as far as I know, they divide into a few kelompoks. And the session only lasts for 4 hours je. So I think they'll be doing kelompok lah mcm group discussions then nak tengok siapa yg standout. GOD! :( The candidates have to wear sports attire and yang lagi absurd for me is that we have to bring at least, I repeat ATLEAST 10 helai of A4 papers! Gila kau, nyahh! Okay, this is really scary though.... Hmm I just hope I could do well. Know what? Because I am highly aware that I'll be competing against banyak straight a's student yg definitely have berderet A plusses on their slip tu. Silap haribulan budak straight A+ pun ada. So it's really ner

Salam.   These past few weeks have been really mcm whistle blow for me. Idk maksud ke idak tu sebenarnya. Midnight ni segala harem words yg terkeluar of my mind ni. But anyway, banyak perkara made me re-think and muhasabah myself. Entahla, sometimes I think that I really like really really really need to go to rehabilitation. NO. Not bcs of the drug addictions or whatever not tu but for self-improvement. No, that's not the word. Haih why oh whyyy am I bad at using words ni? ugh... -_-     Okay sorry. I keep on gibbering ni.     My uncle bought me a laptop (ehem) because I (dengan muka tak malunya) asked from him as my SPM present. I mean, he's devilishly wealthy so why not? Mana tahu masuk jarum tu kan? And just a few days later he bought it. Just like sekali petik je. Didn't saw it coming tau. Sumpah! Cause frankly I never thought of having a new laptop anywhere near this month pun. Just the idea of having a new one could be cool since it will be useful at

Salam. Its already 8th of March. So, result SPM has been announced for approximately 5 days ago. Alhamdulillah, I manage to score straight as. Though stuck 2 A solid but still bersyukur. And now, I'm currently in an undecided stage. Ingatkan after SPM, like everything's gonna be easier, smooth sailing, and whatnot. Rupanya, in order to decide your career path isnt all that kacang, OK. My choice is either medic or engineering. Nak jadi engineer to be honest dah lepas dah bcs dah dapat offer from UTP and Uniten. And with Uniten tu, dapat full scholarship so once I enrolled, which is suppose 16hrb ni, I dont have to think of duit perbelanjaan tu semua lagi bcs dh dapat scholar YTN. BUT, I'm thinking of nk smbg medic. Tapi betul ke aku nak medic? Hmm. My physics is stronger than Bio. Nevertheless, right now, it's either A-levels or IB, JPA or MARA. The ball is in my court. Yes, I did thought of Istikharah but i can't so its kind of disappointing, to not be able to