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Dear Diary, While I’m writing this, I am sitting on my bed in Shahrizan Inn, Kuantan, Pahang. 4 th day away from Home. Spent 3 days in KL, cz I had my volunteering activities done for the Summer. That, will be in another entry. So, the reason I am writing is because, I feel like my dad, might know when he’s leaving us. All the things that he now does, is as if, as a final goodbye to everyone who knows or knew him. It felt like Ji Hyun from 49 Days. I don’t know if he’s only acting on impulse, or was actually planning it, but this is like the very first time that, when we went to KL, he was so determined on having a reunion with his UPM colleagues. KL done, now that’s why we are here in Kuantan. Cz apparently, some of his friends live here, and he is so eager to meet them. You know how he is, very authoritative.    Already met them just now. While my mum was devastated and frustrated, cz it felt like, we were not properly celebrated as tetamu by them, it still fe...

Hi there.  Its been awhile since my last blog update. How are y’all been doing? Still breathing? Alhamdulillah.. Going through rough times? Hmm just keep movin. Cry… Get help. Mengadu dekat Allah in your doa after solat. At least, that’s what I do. Alhamdulillah, ended my first year in medical school. Now, I’m already a month and a half, past my summer break. And another 1.5 months to go till it ends. I’m back in Malaysia now. Gonna be back to Dublin in mid August, insyaAllah. Hm, heads up! My writing skills have gotten worsen, day by day. Sorry if it bores you to death.  A lot have been going on lately. Never seem to see the end of it. I had a blast, on my first year in RCSI. Met a lot of people, made new friends, yet, I still am the socially awkward, introverted person, okay. That fact doesn’t change. I’ve been going out of my comfort zones, a few times. And I thank god for that, for giving me the courage to do it! It does improve my communication and hearing, i...

Assalamualaikum.. I'm still in my 'vacation' mood ie not even bothering to touch any books, so I was trying to sort out my files in my hard disk. When I was looking through photos and videos of my last December trip to Ho Chi Minh City, Vietnam (for CAS purposes), it was exhilarating to reminisce. So, this SehatiSerumpun10.0 group consist of three M15C students and about 11 (+-) E15C students. It was nice la, to blend in/join the engineering kids, for a change. The way they think, behave, enjoy life are way disparate than my peers. Haha. I mean, we do fool around (although seldom), and sometimes serious. But them? Macam tak pernah serious langsung. Hahahahahahaha. (tapi memasing otak geliga tau-that fact doesnt change no matter their attitude) So this is a picture of the three of us; me, qee and baby boo. It was taken the day we are to do our social service at kg Suio Nung. The place was 'insta-worthy' ( I mean, the "wallpaper" nmpk mcm old ruins...

Hi, Assalamualaikum. So, actually I've been reading kak Mira Mudin's blog so it kind of propelled me to update my own blog. Haha Alhamdulillah, my IB result was satisfying. Satisfying enough that it made me lepas all requirements. All throughout the three semesters and during the MOCK exam, I had always been quite doubtful of my future, whether or not I will be accepted to PMC and fly off to Ireland. And Alhamdulillah, all is well. So, I managed to secure a place in RCSI. Those of you who dont know its Royal College of Surgeons Ireland. It's a private uni as compared to the Universities at Dublin, Cork, and Galway. Although Trinity Dublin idk its awam or private. Nevertheless, for twinning programme its either RCSI or UCD for 2.5 years then another 2.5 years is at Penang Medical College which ofcourse at Pulau Pinang la. So, hanya tinggal satu bulan je utk fly, if according to plan. Tapi, actually macam2 lagi tak settle. Certificate of Good Conduct, Borang Sijil Sokon...

Hi... Its the 23rd night of Ramadhan. I should sleep but I'm in the midst of downloading Grey's Anatomy so while I'm at it, thought of dropping a few thoughts here. Watching Grey's Anatomy, I now realised why I didnt get IUMC. Ha ha. Sorry! It is just so hard to let go. (I'm starting to hate myself for posting the interview experience here. Cause when I read, (which is pathetic by the way, I know) I am unfortunately, vividly reminded of that particular day.) So, when I watched Grey's anatomy, I realised (probably not the whole picture) but a gist of how a doctor's life gonna be. I mean, the actual reason for being a doctor. (Ugh whatever.) It was never for self-satisfaction in the first place. In fact, it should never be. Being a doctor is not for yourself to be well-informed of your own physical being. It's not simply wanting to "help people". It's more than that. It takes a hell lot of conscience to be one. I mean, there's no real...

Hi and Assalamualaikum everyone. I know my previous post is incomplete and unfinished. But, I'll update it as soon as I can. Well, actually i dont have anything much to say at this moment just the fact that I would really like to do an update on my very last week here in KMB. literally. Tinggal paper Malay SL and Chemistry HL which I will be sitting this Wednesday, Thursday and Friday morning, InsyaAllah. And the fact that dah lama tk pegang laptop due to my vigorous studying hour, so well, i kind of missed typing on y keyboard. Actually nak tidur dah cause its already way past my curfew but nk lepas rindu jap. Okay so, so far mcm tkda harapan. but i'll worry about that later. nk kena study for chem and malay. I really hope Alah answers my prayers.  Adios.  Intan. x

Am I depressed? Stay focus. Thats what I need to do. Hi Assalamualaikum. U know, dont let the things that u cant control consume your whole being. There are things that's just out of your control that while u may think that u have perfectly taken control of it and that it should go according to your plan, but I guess some things just never meant to be that way- it is what it is. Well, as expected, I didnt get iumc. Sadly. But life, must go on. Right? I know how I didnt get it. I mean, it sure is clear as water from my previous post. I don't know why I responded the way I responded, and probably never will. But its just... Im still in the dark of the why.... U know probably now I dont see it YET. But I sure hope I will one day. And as cliche as this might sound, things happen for a reason, right? (More like convincing myself than convincing y'all) The inferiority starts rolling up to me, u know with people who never experienced failure, never ha...