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Am I depressed? Stay focus. Thats what I need to do. Hi Assalamualaikum. U know, dont let the things that u cant control consume your whole being. There are things that's just out of your control that while u may think that u have perfectly taken control of it and that it should go according to your plan, but I guess some things just never meant to be that way- it is what it is. Well, as expected, I didnt get iumc. Sadly. But life, must go on. Right? I know how I didnt get it. I mean, it sure is clear as water from my previous post. I don't know why I responded the way I responded, and probably never will. But its just... Im still in the dark of the why.... U know probably now I dont see it YET. But I sure hope I will one day. And as cliche as this might sound, things happen for a reason, right? (More like convincing myself than convincing y'all) The inferiority starts rolling up to me, u know with people who never experienced failure, never ha...

Assalamualaikum, and hi. it's been a while.  well, I never intended to blog sometime around this particular time. I'm in the middle of finishing my economics note on unemployment and inflation. Only a quarter finished by the way. sigh.. But I just couldnt concentrate. I kept on thinking. reminiscing. the Memory kept flooding back. I just couldnt let go.  My IUMC interview went awful. I dont know who I was in that room. why I behaved that dy. why I responded tht way. I was not myself. I even answered something that I made up impromptu. I was not being genuine.  As i think back, it was probably I was in a state of shock. because the interview went differently. it was not the usual pattern whereby it always started "okay so tell me about yourself" or "why medicine". it was absolutely nothing like that. Okay, before you all get delusional and scared, my ONLY advice on IUMC interview is you all have to remain calm and YOU LEAD the conversation. jus...

Assalamualaikum. Hello there, everyone. Just in case some of you are wondering what PMC stands for, it's an abbreviation of Penang Medical College.  Well, I just had an interview yesterday (3/11/2016). And it's one hell of an experience, along the lines of a fruitful and a rotten one. I don't know. So many things to tell to be honest. Ok, so first thing first. The PMC twinning programme is one of the overseas-ish medical programmes offered/sponsored by MARA. it's a twinning programme whereby you get to study in RSCI or UCD in Dublin, Ireland for two and a half years (learrning on theory) and then the remaining two and a half years would be spent in Penang, which would be the clinical part of the medical course. Okay so that's pretty much the basics. It was nerve wrecking indeed. I mean, you're to be interviewed by an Irish man. On top of that, they're Doctors, Professors, and the Dean of that Uni. Just my luck that I got a Professor in M...

Salam, and have a pleasant 5th Raya everyone. :) It has been so long since my last entry and I'm really risking my time with updating this post. Because as usual and being a very typical IB student, I got tons of work to do. Shitload of them in actual fact but I'm still typing anyways so.. Life... Life is just unexpected. One day you get to taste the beauty of it, sweetness of its juices but the next, you hit rock bottom really hard . Damn me if I did not put an emphasise on that. My semester 2 result is quite bad, making me doubt the future of whether or not I would still be able to continue my studies overseas & pursue my dreams of becoming a doctor. Sure I made it through the cut-off points but takat hidung je. And it is seriously not enough to pursue medicine with that kind of result and with this competitive world around me. God, I really screwed up big time .  And if you ever feel like life is unfair, know that - as cliche as this may sound - every clou...

Assalamualaikum semua.. Wow, almost a year has passed and this is my newest blog post. All those days, weeks, and months even, passed without me having the slightest inkling of updating my blog. You know how busy a life can be. (Dreadful!) Trust me..  .......My life so far? Idk, it's a whirlwind. How can I describe or tell or whatever you guys could call it those 36 weeks or 254 days of experience and squash it into one-entry blog post? That's bloody ridicule! All I know is that my life is constantly changing. (a phrase that my English lecturer would always say); a complete conclusion of my life's history for this year. I have been admitted to Kolej Mara Banting, Selangor for a two-year diploma programme, IB (abbreviation for International Baccalaureate) which is one of the many preparatory programmes offered in Malaysia if you were to continue your study overseas. Alhamdulillah, I cant thank God enough for this opportunity. However this is just the first bab...

Salam... Nobody's perfect huh. For some reason, I am definitely one to argue (physically i mean). Let's go with this; not everybody's physically perfect. YES that would be much more acceptable. Tipulah kan you have never met a perfectly flawless people. Bcs in my seventeen years of life, from my peripheral point of view, there ARE flawless human beings. Every angles and curves of their body and facial features are molded and so perfectly carved that I could do absolutely nothing else but stare at them in full admiration. Almighty can do no wrong.  Nevertheless, I, being a perfect queen of imperfections, have flaws which I loathe. But self-destruct is waaayyyyyy out of the equation. I'm too precious to go down that road! I cant change the way I look. That's beyond my limited power! God created each person for a reason to change if not the whole world, but to the world of someone at least. Each individual has their vital role in making a significant involve...

Assalamualaikum.. Hi I just received an award today. It was a MISC Education Excellence Award, the company that my father is currently working for. I could say that the award has brought an impact on me-though not tremendously. Hmm.... I was fascinated by one particular eye-opening speech given by the best student (believe me, she deserves to be the best among the best)(she's not just the cream, but she's also the icing of a cake) I cant remember her name, unfortunately but I do remember that she was from Intej (Integrasi Jempol). You know, now in this particular time I'm writing this entry I have come to the realisation that these past couple of years, those manusia yang Berjaya adalah manusia yang sentiasa taat pada Allah. Comparing myself to them I realised yg I don't resemble them at all. Not even one bit. Ya Allah, jauhnya aku daripada jalan yang diredhaimu. On and On I used to write in my Bahasia Malaysia's karangan about how people marcapada live bertuh...